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Entertainment / Re: more waves than the sea
« Last post by SrsSam77 on Yesterday at 12:09 AM »

>they broke up just a couple months ago
>you probably WON'T get a kickass motherfucking middle of november NRW album from the best vocalists and mood-wave people in NRW
>you are stuck to staying up late repainting portraits you did last year while drunk trying to recapture the rapturous feeling you got the first times you did it
Entertainment / Re: more waves than the sea
« Last post by SrsSam77 on September 19, 2017 02:49 PM »
The Gallery / Re: I made a thread!!!
« Last post by Jon on September 16, 2017 05:34 PM »
keep makin stuff
General / Re: music thread 2.1
« Last post by mealguien on September 15, 2017 07:57 PM »
The Gallery / Re: I made a thread!!!
« Last post by nuac_ on September 15, 2017 03:39 AM »
Edit: Almost done, I need to clean up and add stuff but thats it:


Walkin away from this one, ugh:



Whichever one im happiest with I'll continue to mess around with idk.


These aren't perfect but ok.

General / Re: does fear lead to rewards in your life? are you more/less afraid now?
« Last post by Jon on September 14, 2017 11:45 AM »
pretty much what sam said. fear is pretty much my greatest weapon now. you're afraid or anxious about something, do whatever you can to curb or conquer it- now.
When I was a kid I was really anxious about human extinction but five years in the workforce changed my mind.
I had the same thing happen to me. Oblivion used to scare me but then I realized that if it happens it happens.

Basically all my fears are gone from childhood and the new fears are more just common anxiety. Like saying the wrong thing to someone who misheard you and starts freaking out over what they THOUGHT you said instead of what you actually said, and you are unable to explain it to them.
I believe fear and life experience do.
After a trainwreck of things happening to a couple people around me, I started to become rather concerned about two things: my health, and my drive to do things to ensure I live a satisfactory lifestyle

As for health, where most people complain if they have to leave oreos out of their eating schedule for a day, I feel like I'm rushing down a path being chased by a horrible monster, and thusly eating keto, doing intermittent fasting spiced with some 2 and 3 day fasts, and getting copious amounts of exercise are no problem for me. While I find it pleasant that I am in such good shape, I would rather have made these changes without a hot knife of fear going into my back so I can relax and enjoy these positive changes.

As for leading a satsifactory life: Since I'm out of college now, starting to become a professional, and also becoming more adept at communicating and connecting with people, I see a lot of helplessness and a general sense of being lost in the people I'm around and the friends I used to hang out with. It's not uncommon for a couple friends of mine to wake up, smonk dank woad, and play video games all day and collect unemployment checks at the ripe old age of 24. Seeing a complete waste of potential, realizing that my window to exercise my own potential is starting to narrow, and that I have to choose a self sacrifice and follow only one path in life while starting my middle third of life weigh down on me in a somber yet partially uplifting sort of way. I've become great at kicking my ADHD when it comes to doing work and tasks, and self disciplining myself into exercise or reading, but I still vastly lack in other ways that are only just now starting to improve. For years I've said that if I could have but one thing, it would be the discipline to sit down, and just draw; without fear, without getting distracted. At the moment, aside from paying off the leftovers of my student loans, this is my one grand objective. I've come far in certan ways, but hope you all wish me luck in doing this.

keep it real and skip breakfast people
The Gallery / Re: artrocity exhibition
« Last post by Jon on September 12, 2017 12:46 AM »

he he
i wish i could watch horror movies and feel afraid, i can't seem to break that level of immersion anymore
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